I started working at the local grocerystore today, well actually I trained yesterday, but today was my first official day of being "on my own". Since getting sick, I have tried quite a few different types of jobs. So far they have all proven to much physically for me. I am not sure yet about this one. I have been really blessed with my different jobs. They have given me a greater appreciation for what goes into many different types of jobs. When I was first diagnosed, I was a teacher. After that I tried to stay home and babysit. Then I worked as an aide at a nursing home. For a while I was a cook at a Chinese restraunt. Now I work at a grocery store. I have done many "small" jobs between, but these were my "main" jobs. I do like working when I can. It makes me feel like I am giving back to my family some, since they have to take care of me so much. I joke with friends that I hurt when I get home, but it is a good hurt (not that good hurting actually exsists) but somehow the pain is more bearable because I know that I actually did something. This is unlike the everyday pain that I get from doing nothing( that is the hard pain to deal with). My kids love that mommy works at the grocery store, they get to come there after school and get a treat. This is the first job since teaching that my kids liked. They want me to get a job at the school (i don't think they understand that I can't do that physically), but it makes me feel good that they would want me at school with them. I know that I won't be able to work forever, but I am just a little hardheaded (my kids have other names for it). But this hard headedness I think is what keeps me going every day.
I was diagnosed with MS in 2007. I have had ups and downs, good days and bad days, but I wouldn't give up the lessons I learned for anything.
It all started one beautiful summer day at a local water park. I was having fun with the kids and I started feeling a little tired. I figured it was from the heat. I had been getting this for years, if I got to hot or over exurted myself, I would get so tired that it was impossible for me to stay awake. In grade school I was given special permission to "take naps" if I needed them, and in highschool I would still take naps many days (no permission was given though). I spent a little while laying down resting on the lawn chairs. When I got up my butt had fallen asleep (or so I thought). The next morning when I woke up I freaked out. I could not feel anything from my waist down. Needless to say I was rushed to the Dr. who set me up with all kinds of testing. He also got me a wheel chair to use. I am very stubborn and at first refused to use it. I would do this funny walk with crutches where I would use the crutch to move my foot where it needed to be. It was slow but it worked, well sort of. After falling through the back door window because my foot caught and I didnt realize it, I decided that maybe I should use my brain and use the chair. When I was told I had MS, it was in my mind a death sentence. I had known quite a few people with this disease who had to change their lives drastically because of it. Now I feel differently. Yes my life has had to change, but in so many ways for the better. | AuthorA mother with MS just trying to make it in this world. ArchivesMay 2013 Categories |
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